Let’s Talk about Being Alone

Thank you again Mary, ^_^

hope your having a great Thursday too, T.G.I.T(hursday)! I like to tell say that to some of my close lady friends.

all great points, (hope other women find the strength and love inside them to allow themselves to, in a since, attract that woman, they SO deserve” but I know it is NEVER that easy and every other clique many of us are tired of hearing as they say…)

I so agree, I always feel we have to love ourselves first and I am very committed and content and find the love in myself, (though, I know we tend to be our own worst critics more then not, and I think we all have something we wish was “Different” about our bodies as well as when, there is no woman making us feel beautiful, we feel it is sooo hard to love ourselves sometimes, its not easy…, (though, I, we do not want to rely on others to make us feel good, some of us can’t turn that part off…) in my life and I soooo agree. I have talked to many women that say, they want to wait to do all those things til they get a girlfriend.

I have, a long time ago, I have in a since, “went on with my life,” (I go and buy something if I want it, but on a limited budget, that’s limited, I have a lot of small free things I do) (but to me they are “BIG” things to me, some things a lot that people in general take advantage of), though, I am much happier to not sit around and and start doing something, I know how lonely it feels to do those things by yourself, (but, I feel for them and very empathetic about that feeling they are feeling). but, I have the strength (some days not so much) to go out and be content by myself. ^_^

A lot of great things I do and look forward to doing by myself and love myself to the best of my ability, (but we are made to be with other human beings, and I am just tired of being content and not seeing someone see that contentment and come into my life, or I am honest with them (a lot have issues with honesty too), and they in a since, “come up with a million reasons to not call me back…) (I get it, that are not worth it, but I feel many times, if they just come over and take a little time to get to see me in my comfortable environment, I am not so scary, LOL)

as my good lady friends tell me, Jenna, your soo amazing, content in your life and not someone that would scare anyone away and your perfect in your own way as who you are, and so empowering in all you do (and I sooo get all that and I feel the same…)…, but there is so much more to that…

and just taking a moment to share (I know, the “S*it shows” I have heard and I have had myself)… (the stories to tell)…

I know for me, someone to just not feel rushed, listen, (even if its my cat, LOL), or someone to have a “bit**ing session” with, (as I like to call them), someone that is empathetic about my situation, someone that can be gentle and on the flip-side (I shut down and don’t warm up very well to women (or as you called them, the “RULES” I need in my life to have a productive and loving life and room for a partner), when anyone comes at me with sarcasm, anger, frustration (directed at me) and says “this is how it is,” with a bit of aggression behind it, or in their demeanor, (I tend to shut down), I response better to positive, empowering compliments (as I have given my clients when I am empowering them on stage)…

but, I do not want people to think, I am all about the “sh*t-shows” (there is a VERY intelligent, AMAZING, kind, beautiful woman underneath all this)… when I get past all that “issues and attitude and jaded anger” from them, there is a FUN, exciting, very AMAZING woman that people, love and adore (but, don’t seem to want a relationship with me, hmm…, or (or I am attracting the wrong people, similar personalities, but I do not feel physically attracted to them, not that means I am “SHALLOW” I’VE never been about that…) when I type that, its seems to “push them away”…, when I am being “REAL” seems so many women, have issues about so much, the stories to tell…)

Love all your doing Mary, keep it up! ^_^ (I’d truly enjoy a chat with you and some brain-storming session, what is the “block”) I’ll keep an eye on facebook, ^_^

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